Thursday, October 20, 2005
hav u heard of someone keep saying sorry to u n keep doin the mistake again n again?
well im that kinda person but wat d hell im stOoPid to even manage my probs!
ok..i noe i hav hurt many ppl out there..too many!
i just dunno wat else to do..
its just better if im alone..w/o me in ur life would make things better for u i think!
wtf am i doin??im suffering frm DEPRESSION every now and then!
issit my fault? hmmmm..
and guess wat? there r many ppl out there who cares n loves me alot..
but i just couldnt do much for them..
am i very weak? tell me..wats wrong wid me?
i felt something for this guy..he loves me too..
but i just couldnt b happy wid him nor i make him happy..
but i dun wanna disappoint him..cos i meant alot to him..
and he's my closest person i hav now..
not that im afraid he'll change towards me..
but its becos if i do anything else..it will hurt him for the rest of his life..
and im guilty for it..i really care abt him too..
many many ppl in my life right now..well i felt my life is in a mess ryt now..
tho i go out alot n do things i wanna do..i still think alot..
and cry alot too..my heart breaks n pain keeps comin back
and sometimes i dun even noe y n i dun noe wats wrong wid me!
am i CRAZY or FREAKING PSYCHO??
TELL ME!! tell me!! tell me!!
i really miss my abg.mahathir..
he's bookin out this sat..cant wait to c him!!
and my abg.farzi tOo! wanna meet him toOoo!!
well apart frm the shits im having now..i hav other important things to do!
finishing decorating my room,make hari raya biscuits and clean the house!
so tats more important..everything seems fallin apart now..
and i just wanna freeze it or throw it away..
i hav sch to catch up starting frm end of dis month!
so i really hav many things to do n so lil time..
if i didnt make it pls forgive me again..
i wanna say sorry to these ppl especially..im really sorry!!
MAHATHIR GARY BOONPING HAIRUL HAFIZ
FARZI SHIKIN DYDY MUM DAD BROs YAN COUSINS =/
pls forgive me..
i wanna go my own way..mend my messed life..loving u again..
my world is black-my heart is cold..
stitch rocked @ 3:56 PM