Friday, October 09, 2009
i was recovering from the flu.the cough.
the fever.
and the sore throat.
but then just when i was about to be as normal again,
pain, agony, hurt, criticism greets me.
came into my life suddenly n made me went insane yet again.
today wasn't the best day of my week.
tho i was looking forward to the next day - tomorrow.
i am too disappointed to face the world.
i am too hurt to say anything at all.
the beginning of the day wasn't as great yet random.
middle of the day no comment.
no feelings no nothing.
evening part, i feel like having a slit thru my arm n cry.
i held back my tears.
trying to be brave, trying to be calm.
and i did.
but someone just has to ruin it.
i am beginning to look forward to my future hoping she dun exist anymore.
y? because i m selfish, i am not a good person.
or rather, wishing my life span is short.
either or then.
then the bestie just had to add salt to the cut.
the cut that not yet recover.
which was about to recover.
why all this has to happen today?
all at one shot.
i decided, i am not a good girlfriend, a good daughter and not a good friend at all..
i am sorry for being such a nuisance in your life guys.
i wanna thank you for everything you haf gave me.
anyways, don't ask why after this.
cause i dun want to be there anymore.
i don't want to be anyone's somebody anymore.
i am a nobody now. to everyone.
i hereby, let go of all my strings and ties to everyone i know, love and care.
i m sorry.
i haf to go.
far far away...
stitch rocked @ 1:44 AM
name: Nadia Rifhan AKA Nadya Filan Angel
